I have no children, but I know of several mothers in this situation, and it must be the hardest thing to do. I admire all of you and say a little prayer that there may be a bridge, that you may reconnect, that the love may go both ways again. xxx
My sister told my mom she couldn't see her great grand kids because she wasn't jabbed. My mom canceled her plane tickets and cried for a week.
Since then we have watched so many people die... And there's nothing we can do, they took the jab, they chose, and we cried for them, knowing they were making a decision based on fear, not data.
And they STILL think we were in the wrong because we refused it.
When will people learn to think instead of being manipulated by fear?
This was a soul transmission. Powerful. The themes of love, loss, and fragmentation stay with me. The fragmentation in the child’s eyes stares at me the most!
I read every word with awe and recognition, and tears. I am 59 and while my story has a few differences, the thrust is the same. I feel everything you've so eloquently documented. This is our path, and after decades of self-reflection, healing, integration, service, and care of family and humans, I'm not sure what this part means. I never think only in parts; I think about how parts fit within a whole. So how can a part not make sense when I thought I understood the whole of it - of our purpose here, of good and evil, of the importance of kindness and respect and sovereignty and empowerment? What can it possibly mean when a child loved and cared for by their mother rejects that mother? I guess I go back to the teaching that the proper question is never why but what now, how do I respond? You're responding perfectly. Bless you. I can't see through my tears.
My daughter hasn't spoke to me in almost six years now. Not because of any argument, nor any discussion or influence. Just simply because of my personal philosophy on this subject.
That resonated so painfully. You did in time with your baby what I failed to do with three. I wept reading of your strength and resolve. I admire you so much. The suffering now is unlike anything you could describe or imagine, right? Like being immobilized to watch a slow-moving train coming and know you can't pull a sleeping child off the tracks in time. It is not karma, it is something else from another realm. Why use beloved children to punish mothers like us, I wonder? Why sever the ancient and essential connection between baby and grandmother over poison shots? I delayed vaccines for the second two, who were born at home, but now I know that delaying harm is still harm. Plus the synthetic vitamin K that the midwives refused to skip, the starting pistol for the race to destroy their health. I did get school exemptions for all of them after they were obviously harmed even more by boosters. And the boatloads of antibiotics that followed. But I opened my mouth too much after that. I was a doula. I spoke out at city hall. I had study groups at home. I embarrassed my kids for years apparently. I was wrong about vaccines, fluoridation, ultrasounds, birth interventions, antibiotics, infant nutrition, homeopathy. Then Covid. I sent the research on LNP in ovaries and testes. Ignored. I pleaded and begged them to wait. They got angry. Youngest told me I poisoned her mind for 25 years and she was done with me. We did not talk for almost two years.
Your heart of true love will triumph in the end, because it was 'right' in a world where wrong is right & right is wrong. You have True spiritual strength in the face of Goliath! Support yourself, be kind to yourself. You'll be in my prayers Aliss 🙏❤️🙏
Seriously? Denying science and medical advances makes a woman a wonderful mother? Have you read about the suffering and deaths of children from the likes of smallpox, polio, diphtheria, whooping cough? What if the author's daughter had not been so lucky? What if her daughter had become permanently disabled or died as a result of her choice not to vaccinate her daughter? Would she still feel she made the right choice? Millions of children's lives have been saved by vaccines against diseases that crippled or killed children before vaccines were available.
Denying science doesn't make anyone wonderful.
In addition, it seems that the author was never honest with her daughter about not being vaccinated. She let her daughter assume she was vaccinated like the majority of her friends and peers, and then let her find out that this was not the case. She lied to her daughter ( lies of omission are still lies). Did her daughter feel betrayed by her mother? Did she feel her mother deceived her?Did the daughter feel her mother did not take good care of her because she chose to ignore the volume of studies and evidence detailing the safety of vaccines? That her mother chose to risk her daughter becoming very ill or dying?
And the author is upset that her daughter chooses not to speak to or associate with her? I think it is reasonable and understandable for someone to be upset with a parent who chooses to ignore science, risk her daughter's health by not vaccinating her, lies by omission and even when her daughter is an adult chooses not to enlighten her daughter and to explain her choices. Not telling her daughter she was unvaccinated before she left for college was an act of cowardice. How does she think her daughter felt when she accidentally found out, wondering why her mother never told her or explained? The daughter trusted her mother (the author) and she betrayed her daughter's trust. Once trust in a person and a relationship has been destroyed, it often can never be rebuilt.
Choosing not to vaccinate a child is one thing, not telling the child or explaining your choice is another thing. The author now lives with the consequences of these choices she made. Wonderful mothers do not lie to or betray the trust if their children.
You also fail to address the unnecessary adverse reactions caused by Vaccine injuries . Thalidomide HBV HIV mRNA causing millions of deaths and vast serious injuries in the young, Myocarditis, Endocarditis, Pericarditis, CVAS, turbo Cancers, infertility,spontaneous abortions, Long COVD, Autism ,Anyphlaxis. Why are Amish Children so healthy with little diseases,no Autism ,never have been vaccinated .
You are honestly Govt programmed if you cannot seriously decifer why vaccines are not better than biological immunity in a healthy well nourished society .If a society is educated , well nourished , hygienic, has clean water , security , sunshine sleep, reduction in overcrowding the risk of pathogen spread is minimal .
Wow! I can relate to this. I fully jabbed my kids in the early 90’s. Had NO IDEA they were literally poison. Then in 2017 my eyes were opened by The Highwire and reading Dissolving Illusions. I shared my new information and data with my now older kids. For my daughter it stuck, my son who is possibly mildly Asperger’s and is easily manipulated and scared took a TDap and flu in college. They used the excuse “you don’t want to be sick during finals do you?” 9-12 mos later out of the blue, he developed chronic kidney disease. I read his flu shot contained dog kidney cells. I do believe they triggered his autoimmune minimal change disease. It was a hard year of biopsies, doctors appointments and prednisone and resulting side effects. One would have thought that would convince him? But no Covid comes around and he and his wife got the shots (he J&J, she Moderna) because they lived near Seattle and you couldn’t attend ANYTHING without your papers. And that was just too important! I cried for two days when he told me he had his. In hindsight I feel I should have done more to warn him. He claims neither of them have any side effects so far. 🤷♀️ Luckily they don’t have children and I’m glad. I know they would succumb to the fear and shoot them up. My 32yo daughter on the other hand has a beautiful 100% unvaxxed 18mo old. My granddaughter has literally never been sick a day in her life. Her vocabulary is exploding. And the sparkle in her eyes! I know exactly what you mean about that glazed over look so many children have now. Or the eyes don’t track right. She is due with number 2 in July and he will be unvaxxed and uncut as well.
Thanks very much for your response. More and more food for thought... :) I think about these kinds of rather deep matters, as well, Watersnake, as regards an ancient evil which seems to be surfacing here and there. I always thought the universe had a purpose, some deep purpose, and I want to keep believing this, but my faith is waning. The Bin story made my blood run cold. I thought it needed some filling out but it is good as it stands, too.
I occasionally go to the book of Revelation to hunt for some broader, overall meaning there, but no one knows for sure who wrote this - or even if this "John" character is correct! Maybe the horrible events described were not predictions based on visions - maybe they were some party's plan for us? Others have said so.
You have a point in noticing that what we are enduring here may be the western equivalent of the ghastly cultural revolution in China. The bloodbath in communist Cambodia was actually younger folk killing their elders, according to some viewpoints, not merely some political ideology of the usual kind. An acquaintance of mine visiting east Asia said that she could not bear the culture and overall feeling in Cambodia, that it was One Sad Place. Ghosts, maybe.
PS: I see that composting is your ideology. LOL. Love that. I compost, too, but not in the accepted way. Throughout our long winter I throw kitchen slops right onto the beds. By May, only parts & pieces of the wastes are visible as such.
The main thing my acquaintance noticed was incredible poverty right next to wealth. Organized crime, many casinos, forced labor (slavery), other problems galore.
Seems we are headed in that direction, too. This woman who visited Cambodia thinks it'll be sunshine and roses here forever; you can't talk about any remotely controversial or political topic with her. She is the center of the universe, she thinks. Wars? They're "over there", not our concern. Etc.
This is a powerful piece of writing. What struck me most is how quietly it captures the emotional reality of the past few years without turning into an argument or a manifesto.
The story isn’t really about vaccines as much as it is about what happens when fear becomes a social organizing principle. The moment when the daughter says, “You’re part of the problem,” perfectly captures the moral language of the Covid era — where disagreement stopped being a difference of opinion and became a character flaw or even a threat.
The detail about the plastic bin is especially haunting. It represents decades of reading, thinking, and making difficult choices as a parent — and then the realization that none of that knowledge can cross the generational divide once the institutions your child trusts are telling her something else.
The ending in the parking lot is devastating in its restraint. No speeches, no vindication, just a grandmother pushing a cart with a bad wheel toward the blueberries while carrying knowledge she can’t share.
Whether autobiographical or not, it rings emotionally true. Stories like this are an important record of what the social climate of that period actually felt like for many families.
It is a busy day but I could not just open skim a little and close it. The ache in my heart is real. The tears coming from that ache of knowing we could only do what we could do and no more. Just as we had to be released by our parents, we have to release our children and hope that we have done all we could do. Now we entrust them to the God of all grace Who has been with us and will now be with them …and their children. Thank you for all you do.
A sad story, so close, but like a war that comes upon us, surrounds every day, we can do nothing about, we take sides but there are no sides, only the war within, and the trauma we push away, because we can't face our part in it. Until we don't, and emerge into the light. That's all we can do, in the face a lie, a mind virus seeking believers, a lie that seeks liars, gathered like rape seed, it's oils made for the heart stopping fryer, seeing through the glass darkly, but then face to face... to know love that knows no fear. "Behold, I send you forth as sheep in the midst of wolves: be ye therefore wise as serpents, and harmless as doves."
An old man with a tear in his eye and after doing the research had a living room full of family members who swore never to poison the bodies of anyone in said room and anyone to be born after this meeting, me the oldest with months of research and what I call wisdom preaching to all about the evil that man can do to each other. We have all been through our stories and we tell them to each other for comfort and we are still free of the demon seed. I am sorry for your lose, as it could be any family that fought so hard against constant brainwashing and repetition, I hate them for it and will never forgive what they have done to billions
I cried. Powerful. Two out of my 3 chose to jab themselves. I'm still planting seeds and hoping I have the wisdom to water them appropriately. 💔
Beautiful and insightful piece of writing. That is one of the hardest things you have to do as a parent - love them and let them get on with it.
I have no children, but I know of several mothers in this situation, and it must be the hardest thing to do. I admire all of you and say a little prayer that there may be a bridge, that you may reconnect, that the love may go both ways again. xxx
My sister told my mom she couldn't see her great grand kids because she wasn't jabbed. My mom canceled her plane tickets and cried for a week.
Since then we have watched so many people die... And there's nothing we can do, they took the jab, they chose, and we cried for them, knowing they were making a decision based on fear, not data.
And they STILL think we were in the wrong because we refused it.
When will people learn to think instead of being manipulated by fear?
“ When will people learn to think instead of being manipulated by fear?”
They won’t, unless they are raised by parents who teach them to see how it works and how to find the strength to resist.
In my opinion.
This was a soul transmission. Powerful. The themes of love, loss, and fragmentation stay with me. The fragmentation in the child’s eyes stares at me the most!
I read every word with awe and recognition, and tears. I am 59 and while my story has a few differences, the thrust is the same. I feel everything you've so eloquently documented. This is our path, and after decades of self-reflection, healing, integration, service, and care of family and humans, I'm not sure what this part means. I never think only in parts; I think about how parts fit within a whole. So how can a part not make sense when I thought I understood the whole of it - of our purpose here, of good and evil, of the importance of kindness and respect and sovereignty and empowerment? What can it possibly mean when a child loved and cared for by their mother rejects that mother? I guess I go back to the teaching that the proper question is never why but what now, how do I respond? You're responding perfectly. Bless you. I can't see through my tears.
Bless you Shelly, you are a true hero in my book 🙏❤️🙏
Aw, thank you for such kind sentiments. I appreciate your thoughtfulness. 🙏
It's my pleasure Shelly :)
My daughter hasn't spoke to me in almost six years now. Not because of any argument, nor any discussion or influence. Just simply because of my personal philosophy on this subject.
I am deeply sorry, I'll pray for you & your daughter Gwyneth 🙏❤️🙏 be kind to yourself and have faith ❤️
Thank you, your prayers are greatly appreciated.
MY pleasure, many Blessings your way Gwyneth :)
That resonated so painfully. You did in time with your baby what I failed to do with three. I wept reading of your strength and resolve. I admire you so much. The suffering now is unlike anything you could describe or imagine, right? Like being immobilized to watch a slow-moving train coming and know you can't pull a sleeping child off the tracks in time. It is not karma, it is something else from another realm. Why use beloved children to punish mothers like us, I wonder? Why sever the ancient and essential connection between baby and grandmother over poison shots? I delayed vaccines for the second two, who were born at home, but now I know that delaying harm is still harm. Plus the synthetic vitamin K that the midwives refused to skip, the starting pistol for the race to destroy their health. I did get school exemptions for all of them after they were obviously harmed even more by boosters. And the boatloads of antibiotics that followed. But I opened my mouth too much after that. I was a doula. I spoke out at city hall. I had study groups at home. I embarrassed my kids for years apparently. I was wrong about vaccines, fluoridation, ultrasounds, birth interventions, antibiotics, infant nutrition, homeopathy. Then Covid. I sent the research on LNP in ovaries and testes. Ignored. I pleaded and begged them to wait. They got angry. Youngest told me I poisoned her mind for 25 years and she was done with me. We did not talk for almost two years.
🙏 you are a hero, even if others can't see it.
Your heart of true love will triumph in the end, because it was 'right' in a world where wrong is right & right is wrong. You have True spiritual strength in the face of Goliath! Support yourself, be kind to yourself. You'll be in my prayers Aliss 🙏❤️🙏
From Kahlil Gibran - The Prophet
And a woman who held a babe against her bosom said, "Speak to us of Children."
And he said:
Your children are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you, yet they belong not to you.
You may give them your love but not your thoughts.
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.
You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth.
The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite, and He bends you with His might that His arrows may go swift and far.
Let your bending in the archer's hand be for gladness;
For even as he loves the arrow that flies, so He loves also the bow that is stable.
Beautiful ❤️
What a wonderful Mother
Seriously? Denying science and medical advances makes a woman a wonderful mother? Have you read about the suffering and deaths of children from the likes of smallpox, polio, diphtheria, whooping cough? What if the author's daughter had not been so lucky? What if her daughter had become permanently disabled or died as a result of her choice not to vaccinate her daughter? Would she still feel she made the right choice? Millions of children's lives have been saved by vaccines against diseases that crippled or killed children before vaccines were available.
Denying science doesn't make anyone wonderful.
In addition, it seems that the author was never honest with her daughter about not being vaccinated. She let her daughter assume she was vaccinated like the majority of her friends and peers, and then let her find out that this was not the case. She lied to her daughter ( lies of omission are still lies). Did her daughter feel betrayed by her mother? Did she feel her mother deceived her?Did the daughter feel her mother did not take good care of her because she chose to ignore the volume of studies and evidence detailing the safety of vaccines? That her mother chose to risk her daughter becoming very ill or dying?
And the author is upset that her daughter chooses not to speak to or associate with her? I think it is reasonable and understandable for someone to be upset with a parent who chooses to ignore science, risk her daughter's health by not vaccinating her, lies by omission and even when her daughter is an adult chooses not to enlighten her daughter and to explain her choices. Not telling her daughter she was unvaccinated before she left for college was an act of cowardice. How does she think her daughter felt when she accidentally found out, wondering why her mother never told her or explained? The daughter trusted her mother (the author) and she betrayed her daughter's trust. Once trust in a person and a relationship has been destroyed, it often can never be rebuilt.
Choosing not to vaccinate a child is one thing, not telling the child or explaining your choice is another thing. The author now lives with the consequences of these choices she made. Wonderful mothers do not lie to or betray the trust if their children.
Who are you to judge the love of this Mother .
Why has Autism Asthma and other major diseases risen dramatically in Children ,with the progression of mass Vaccinations programs .
You also fail to address the unnecessary adverse reactions caused by Vaccine injuries . Thalidomide HBV HIV mRNA causing millions of deaths and vast serious injuries in the young, Myocarditis, Endocarditis, Pericarditis, CVAS, turbo Cancers, infertility,spontaneous abortions, Long COVD, Autism ,Anyphlaxis. Why are Amish Children so healthy with little diseases,no Autism ,never have been vaccinated .
You are honestly Govt programmed if you cannot seriously decifer why vaccines are not better than biological immunity in a healthy well nourished society .If a society is educated , well nourished , hygienic, has clean water , security , sunshine sleep, reduction in overcrowding the risk of pathogen spread is minimal .
Also read Dr Elizabeth Mumper and her observations of Vaccines and Childhood diseases over her 40 years as a Paediatrician.
Wow! I can relate to this. I fully jabbed my kids in the early 90’s. Had NO IDEA they were literally poison. Then in 2017 my eyes were opened by The Highwire and reading Dissolving Illusions. I shared my new information and data with my now older kids. For my daughter it stuck, my son who is possibly mildly Asperger’s and is easily manipulated and scared took a TDap and flu in college. They used the excuse “you don’t want to be sick during finals do you?” 9-12 mos later out of the blue, he developed chronic kidney disease. I read his flu shot contained dog kidney cells. I do believe they triggered his autoimmune minimal change disease. It was a hard year of biopsies, doctors appointments and prednisone and resulting side effects. One would have thought that would convince him? But no Covid comes around and he and his wife got the shots (he J&J, she Moderna) because they lived near Seattle and you couldn’t attend ANYTHING without your papers. And that was just too important! I cried for two days when he told me he had his. In hindsight I feel I should have done more to warn him. He claims neither of them have any side effects so far. 🤷♀️ Luckily they don’t have children and I’m glad. I know they would succumb to the fear and shoot them up. My 32yo daughter on the other hand has a beautiful 100% unvaxxed 18mo old. My granddaughter has literally never been sick a day in her life. Her vocabulary is exploding. And the sparkle in her eyes! I know exactly what you mean about that glazed over look so many children have now. Or the eyes don’t track right. She is due with number 2 in July and he will be unvaxxed and uncut as well.
And thank you for adding "uncut as well". Bravo.
As I read the comments and nod in recognition, I wonder.
Is this the western equivalent of the cultural revolution in China? It too destroyed families by indoctrinating children against their elders beliefs.
What ancient evil is this that surfaces in diverse cultures and chews apart the bonds of familial love with twisted ideology?
There’s more in that Bin than vax info. It’s Pandora’s heartbreak.
Or maybe even Eve’s?
Thanks very much for your response. More and more food for thought... :) I think about these kinds of rather deep matters, as well, Watersnake, as regards an ancient evil which seems to be surfacing here and there. I always thought the universe had a purpose, some deep purpose, and I want to keep believing this, but my faith is waning. The Bin story made my blood run cold. I thought it needed some filling out but it is good as it stands, too.
I occasionally go to the book of Revelation to hunt for some broader, overall meaning there, but no one knows for sure who wrote this - or even if this "John" character is correct! Maybe the horrible events described were not predictions based on visions - maybe they were some party's plan for us? Others have said so.
You have a point in noticing that what we are enduring here may be the western equivalent of the ghastly cultural revolution in China. The bloodbath in communist Cambodia was actually younger folk killing their elders, according to some viewpoints, not merely some political ideology of the usual kind. An acquaintance of mine visiting east Asia said that she could not bear the culture and overall feeling in Cambodia, that it was One Sad Place. Ghosts, maybe.
PS: I see that composting is your ideology. LOL. Love that. I compost, too, but not in the accepted way. Throughout our long winter I throw kitchen slops right onto the beds. By May, only parts & pieces of the wastes are visible as such.
Thanks for the Cambodia historical info. I had no idea.
The main thing my acquaintance noticed was incredible poverty right next to wealth. Organized crime, many casinos, forced labor (slavery), other problems galore.
Seems we are headed in that direction, too. This woman who visited Cambodia thinks it'll be sunshine and roses here forever; you can't talk about any remotely controversial or political topic with her. She is the center of the universe, she thinks. Wars? They're "over there", not our concern. Etc.
Thank you for sharing! My prayers for your whole family, your son & his wife especially. 🙏❤️🙏
This is a true mother.
In the specific kind of today's western society, she became what people dare to call "domestic terrorists".
I truly hope there are many more mothers becoming such kind of "domestic terrorists".
A humble salute by a father (61) of 2 sibling boys (20).
Here here! 🥰
Powerful and I am crying but not for me for all the mothers that does not se what is happening and why??
This is a powerful piece of writing. What struck me most is how quietly it captures the emotional reality of the past few years without turning into an argument or a manifesto.
The story isn’t really about vaccines as much as it is about what happens when fear becomes a social organizing principle. The moment when the daughter says, “You’re part of the problem,” perfectly captures the moral language of the Covid era — where disagreement stopped being a difference of opinion and became a character flaw or even a threat.
The detail about the plastic bin is especially haunting. It represents decades of reading, thinking, and making difficult choices as a parent — and then the realization that none of that knowledge can cross the generational divide once the institutions your child trusts are telling her something else.
The ending in the parking lot is devastating in its restraint. No speeches, no vindication, just a grandmother pushing a cart with a bad wheel toward the blueberries while carrying knowledge she can’t share.
Whether autobiographical or not, it rings emotionally true. Stories like this are an important record of what the social climate of that period actually felt like for many families.
So very well said! 🙏🥰
It is a busy day but I could not just open skim a little and close it. The ache in my heart is real. The tears coming from that ache of knowing we could only do what we could do and no more. Just as we had to be released by our parents, we have to release our children and hope that we have done all we could do. Now we entrust them to the God of all grace Who has been with us and will now be with them …and their children. Thank you for all you do.
A sad story, so close, but like a war that comes upon us, surrounds every day, we can do nothing about, we take sides but there are no sides, only the war within, and the trauma we push away, because we can't face our part in it. Until we don't, and emerge into the light. That's all we can do, in the face a lie, a mind virus seeking believers, a lie that seeks liars, gathered like rape seed, it's oils made for the heart stopping fryer, seeing through the glass darkly, but then face to face... to know love that knows no fear. "Behold, I send you forth as sheep in the midst of wolves: be ye therefore wise as serpents, and harmless as doves."
(Matthew 10:16)
🥺🙏❤️🙏
Very fitting ❤️
Thank you for sharing the scripture. 🙏🏼 Going to dog ear that one. 🙏🏼
An old man with a tear in his eye and after doing the research had a living room full of family members who swore never to poison the bodies of anyone in said room and anyone to be born after this meeting, me the oldest with months of research and what I call wisdom preaching to all about the evil that man can do to each other. We have all been through our stories and we tell them to each other for comfort and we are still free of the demon seed. I am sorry for your lose, as it could be any family that fought so hard against constant brainwashing and repetition, I hate them for it and will never forgive what they have done to billions