Interview with Mary Beth Rosenstiel

On vaccination, autism, abandonment, and motherhood

This interview came about when Mary Beth wrote a long comment related to an earlier interview that started out like this…

Even explaining your choices and decisions as a parent does NOT necessarily affect the choices your children will make as adults. I always talked with my children, explaining things and sharing information always. Fast forward to today and my daughter vehemently now disagrees with me on just about anything medical and otherwise. Never mind I am educated and taught at university along the way in my career. She is now fully jabbed and boosted and calls me crazy and has walked out of my life.

I wrote to her asking whether she would be open to telling her story and being interviewed. Thankfully, she agreed.

There is so much in this story. So many different threads.

I found it hard to read at times and was quite emotional by the end.

As a friend said recently, we that have woken up exist between two worlds. The real and the unreal. We shape shift and adapt as we exit one and enter the other, and back again.

Raising a child in one world is hard enough.

Raising a child while navigating two worlds is an exercise in perpetual vigilance.

Raising two children, alone, between the worlds, is frankly superhuman.

I’m grateful to Mary Beth for the detail and openness of her answers. These stories are important, but rarely told.

With thanks to Mary Beth Rosenstiel, DNP¹

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Early Parenting Philosophies: Can you describe your approach to parenting in the early years of your children's lives and how you balanced education and personal beliefs?

Growing up in the 50s and 60s children were to be seen and not heard, were not to complain, participate in conversations between adults, or have opinions/strong feelings. The biggest taboo I remember was ‘families do Not air their dirty laundry in public’ ever. What happened behind closed doors stayed there, anything bad that happened you ‘swept under the rug’ to never be talked about again. Lots and lots of secrets to be kept at all costs.  I remember vowing to myself that when I grew up I was never going to keep secrets or make promises, I would listen to my children, include them in family choices, and encourage them to speak up if and when they saw something wrong or were concerned, something bad would happen. I WOULD ALWAYS BELIEVE WHAT THEY TOLD ME, and not ignore their feelings in what happened to them.

I was thrilled to get pregnant, and in the 70s the science said that pregnant women should NOT be given or take any medications even OTC, and never an immunization while pregnant. I had my children naturally with no medications in labor. When my children were born nearly every decision or choice, I made was done with them in mind always.

I never bought into the ‘let them cry it out’ and learn to self-soothe. As a young nurse I had paid close attention to child development and the ages & stages they would go through, and it all spoke to something in me deeply. An infant crying is how they communicate, so anything more than 5 minutes was telling me they needed something…even if just to be held and cuddled. I was often admonished by well-meaning others for ‘holding a baby too much’. Balderdash to that. Love and touch do not spoil anyone, and even adults crave them…so why would an infant need less.

Being educated in the allopathic healthcare philosophy and as Big Pharma was getting more and more involved in health choices, I was educated in nursing that vaccinations had saved humanity and children from terrible deaths, so be sure to get those babies immunized on schedule at 2-4-6-12-15 months etc. My children were seen by the pediatrician as instructed to do. And I complied without questioning much of it, as I was educated to do.

When infants and toddlers I made sure they had age-appropriate toys that were geared toward their growth and development. Colorful things, lots of books being read, music played and sung. Toddlers always like to help you, so I had them in the kitchen with me getting little hands involved and messy in baking breads and cookies, putting laundry in baskets, putting pots and pans away to be taken out almost as fast. Wonderful memories for me now.

As they grew, they were given chores to do, and given an allowance. They saved some always and spent the rest when I took them out. Along with chores came social rules and expectations too. A popular theory pushed by ‘experts’ at that time was to never say ‘NO’ to your child, as it would bruise their budding egos and squelch their creativity. That never felt right to me, how would they learn right from wrong, personal responsibility, etc. So, I declined that expert advice while many friends admonished me for it.  I never regretted my decision, and still don’t.

My children learned much through trial and error as all kids do. Telling the truth might be difficult but lying and getting caught would have worse consequences, like no park or ice cream, etc. We talked about things, good and bad, as they came up. It was OK to be sad and cry.  It was OK to be upset, but not to hurt anyone ever. There were no corporal punishments ever, but there were lots of time outs and loss of privileges. I never threatened anything I wasn’t willing to follow through on…so no mixed messages from this mom ever.

Their father worked out of town for long stretches of time, so he wasn’t as involved in day-to-day care, and few fathers of that time were. I worked as a nurse, so I needed childcare. For a while my mom watched them, but when her situation changed, I had to find someone else. A daunting task for any new mother, but one I stressed over a lot. I had to be certain that whoever cared for my kids had to be safe! I interviewed dozens of in-home providers as well as childcare centers. I asked tons of questions and made multiple visits to those I considered. Even doing that did not prevent a major issue with my daughter when she was a toddler. Life doesn’t always go according to our plans at times, and regrouping becomes second nature.

Communication Dynamics: How did you foster open communication with your children, and what topics were most frequently discussed in your household?

From the time they were born I talked to them as if they understood everything I said. I asked questions about how they felt about what I was always doing, like changing a diaper, breast feeding, which bedtime story to read, etc. When they became verbal, I continued to ask how they felt about things, what they liked, what they didn’t, and why. We had family discussions at the dinner table. Nothing was off limits to talk about, ever.

As they grew, the topics of discussion changed, as they do for everyone. We talked about their friends, what happened in school and out of school, sad events in our family and others', and made plans for birthdays, holidays, and vacations.

As they got older, we talked about body changes of adolescence, sexuality, and decisions, how to be safe from STDs & AIDS, unwed pregnancies, drug addictions, safe driving and alcohol, bigotry and prejudice, death and grief, and anything else that society was grappling with at the time. Nothing was ever off limits to ask about or discuss.

Observations on Child Development: Reflecting on your son's early development, what were the key milestones you observed before his diagnosis?

My son was a happy baby from the beginning. He entered the world weighing 9#6oz and 24”, he didn’t fit newborn clothes. He had some jaundice for a week or so but letting him nap near a window kept him out of the hospital. He didn’t sleep as much as most babies, yes 6-8 hrs. at night, but he never napped longer than 20 minutes or so during the day so there wasn’t much downtime for me…and of course childcare providers commented also.

He began talking at 8-9 months old, and by the time he was a year he was speaking 2-4 word sentences and I was told he was at a 2 & 3 yr. old development level on milestones. He walked at 10 1/2 months. He was curious about everything and loved people, never really becoming fearful of strangers like most infants do around 9-12 months old.

At his four-month checkup he received the 2nd DPT. He developed a fever and his leg turned bright red and swelled to twice its size. Of course, I was told it was nothing serious and a common reaction to the pertussis vaccine, but that did not jive with what I had learned and read, so I REFUSED to give him any more pertussis jabs. He had no issue with his 6 month immunizations, so I felt reassured all was OK.

He had his 15 month well-baby check-up just before he was 16 months old and had DT and MMR vaccines. That night he cried and cried inconsolably, but finally went to sleep after having some Tylenol. In the morning he was lethargic, wouldn’t eat or drink, and didn’t say a single word…just cried. From that day onward he declined further. There was no more talking, no babbling happy baby, he would not make eye contact, didn’t want to be touched or held, began rocking back and forth, banging his head against walls, and slept less and less at night and not all during the day. Quickly the night terrors began, he would scream and rock in his crib after only sleeping 30-45 minutes. I had a rocking chair by his crib and I would pick him up and rock his thrashing body for the next 30-45 minutes until he quieted down and I could lay him down and I could go back to my bed…only to do again in less than an hour. That was my nightly routine for the next couple of years. The pediatrician told me all was normal. I had nothing to worry about as he would ‘outgrow’ everything soon! As for the night terrors I was told to ‘let him cry it out’ and not go in to smooth him and I was just spoiling him in the end. His father agreed that I was overreacting and spoiling him. So, I tried for two nights…but he screamed and thrashed in the crib all night long, never awake in his night terrors. I REFUSED to ignore his pain and distress ever again.

He began to use words again by his second birthday, but not to have a conversation with you. If you asked him a question, he would simply echo your words back to you, nothing more. But if he was in another room and heard someone ask a question, he would yell the answer out from afar, but never if you were in the room with him. His hearing was astute and he could hear a whisper two rooms away.

He would watch cartoons but always got most excited about commercials.  Soon he would point to words on trucks or billboards and read them out loud. He knew all the words for colors, cars, flowers, favorite foods, etc. Then he began waiting at the mail slot weekly a grab the TV Guide on Tuesdays. He would take it and hide in his closet for the next hour or so. Then over the week if he heard someone ask where the guide was, he would blurt out whatever day it was and then give a run-down of what was on each of the four channels and at what times. He was just 2.5 years old and had taught himself to read!

Response to Diagnosis: When your son was diagnosed as 'severely autistic', what were your initial thoughts and feelings, and how did you begin to navigate this new reality?

I wasn’t really surprised as I had brought it up with his pediatrician before but was always told I was overreacting to things, and he would outgrow all of it! Few docs were versed in autism at that time. As a nurse I decided to contact CDRC at OHSU for an evaluation on my own as I knew something was amiss, and I suspected autism. He spent two days in testing, and I was finally told his IQ was only 36 and he was autistic…an IQ one point below an ‘imbecile’! He could read at two years old…but IQ is based on following directions and answering questions, something my son couldn’t do.  I was told that with the severity of his autism I should institutionalize him, as he would NEVER be able to function in society. I refused that suggestion, so they insisted I enroll him in the Autism and Behavioral School locally. I agreed to visit it but gave no promises to enroll my son. They also said they needed to follow him every 6 months to give me ‘guidance’ on how to deal with him. At that time autism was coded in diagnostic manuals as a mental illness caused by a cold, distance, and overbearing mother who did not hold or show her children love and affection.

I visited the Autism school and left vowing to never send my child there or recommend it to others. Most of the kids were nonverbal, just mumbling incoherently. All wore helmets because of constant head banging and rocking themselves, like my son did frequently. I was told they were all on medications to help control behaviors and keep them calm. I wasn’t going to medicate my son and squelch his potential just to make life easier for me or them! No thanks I would search natural means on my own.

Sadly, his father could NOT handle having a son who was ’not normal’ and was upset that I refused to lock him up in some facility to simply warehouse him. So, three weeks later in the middle of the night he snuck out, taking items he valued most and after cleaning out the bank accounts. So now I was a single mother with a 2 & 6 year to care for, looking for ways to help my son and make sure my daughter didn’t feel left out. Thankfully I had an awesome mother close by to help however she could.

Research and Decisions: What led you to Dr. Feingold's work, and what aspects of his research resonated with you the most during that critical time?

Actually, it was my mother who brought Dr. Feingold² to my attention. About a month after my husband deserted us my mother brought me an article and insisted, I read it immediately. It was about a young boy diagnosed with Autism whose mother followed Dr. Feingold’s instructions on finding food allergies, and he was now considered no longer autistic! Not much other info on how or what was done, so I decided to locate Dr. F’s book to read…I had nothing to lose and knowledge to gain even if it didn’t help my child.

Dr. Feingold’s theory was this…people have food allergies with different reactions. Some get rashes, hives, sinus issues, headaches, asthma, and some experience anaphylaxis. Dr. Feingold postulated that some might experience those reactions as minute swelling of nerve endings in the brain that would cause behavioral issues being diagnosed as ADHD and Autism. He said many foods are known allergens as well as chemicals used in processed foods, and if you could identify which ones affected your child and remove them those minute brain swelling would be controlled. All made sense to my mind. He suggested taking ALL those foods known as potential allergens out of the house, along with all processed food products, and to cook from scratch for at least two weeks. Once symptoms improved then begin adding only ONE of the suspect food products back at a time. Every 7 days you could add one more food item back. When symptoms reappeared, you knew that food products were affecting your child. He also pointed out that many times the foods that are the culprit are also the foods your child craves the most, so be prepared for some outburst around them. Everything sounded plausible to me, and I could add it easily.

Implementing Dr. Feingold's Plan: Can you walk us through the process of implementing Dr. Feingold's plan and the challenges you faced during this period?

I went through my kitchen and tossed all processed foods such as cereals, boxed meals, snacks, soups, juices, Kool-Aid, anything in a box, lunch meats, hot dogs, and all premade frozen meals, etc. I began to cook all meals from scratch, breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Since I worked, I needed to provide all foods for my son while in daycare. As predicted my son got upset and cranky and fussed when his usual treats were no longer available to him, and his favorite meal of hot dogs & Mac n cheese was no more. For a few days he threw most meals on the floor…but I was resolute in following through. It was a rough couple of weeks for sure, but so worth it in the end. Yes, cooking from scratch took more time and planning, meant I had less ‘free’ time to do other things, but once it became a habit it wasn’t an issue.

Observing Changes: What were the first signs of improvement you noticed in your son after starting Dr. Feingold's plan, and how did these changes progress over time?

After two weeks I noticed he slept longer between bouts of night terrors. Rather than every 45-60 minutes, it became every 2 hours or so and slept soundly sleep between episodes. About 4 weeks in I woke up one morning realizing it had been 8 hours without a peep from my son. I ran into his room and he was sleeping peacefully in his crib. I had not slept 8 hrs. in one stretch in years now! Two or three days later when I picked him up at the church day care his teacher excitedly asked me what I had done because when she asked my young son questions that day, he looked her in the eyes and answered clearly, something he had never done before!

That is when I decided to begin adding suspect foods back, one at a time every 5 days or so. This process took several weeks but I did find what he was reacting to…Red Food dyes and preservative BHT and BHA³, found in nearly all processed foods and packaging. Yes, those preservatives are actually used in the boxes that hold cereals and other dry food products! So, I learned to read EVERY package label on bought, and still do to this day.

Interactions with Healthcare Professionals: How did healthcare professionals react to your son's progress, and what was your experience like dealing with their skepticism?

Each time my son was seen at CDRC (child development and research center) they were amazed at the improvement in his IQ and ability to interact with the evaluators. At his first six-month check-up his IQ jumped from 36 to 90, and they thought I brought the wrong child. They asked what had changed in his life. I explained that I was following Dr. Feingold’s program, but Dr. Stubbs assured me that this wasn’t possible because he considered that doctor a 'quack'. He suggested that if I saw changes, it was likely 'all in my mind'. They were NOT open to thinking outside their little black box of flawed science no matter what I said. No matter, I knew the truth, and I continued to do the program. At the next six-month check-up my son’s IQ had jumped to 120! Still, they refused to consider Dr. Feingold’s theory, so I offered to sign a release form and they could keep my child for 7-10 days, feed him foods he reacted to, and see for themselves the behavioral changes. They declined my offer secure in their minds that I was mistaken.

Six months later at the next visit my son’s IQ was 139, and still they denied that foods or additives could be responsible. They decided that my son was just one of four other boys they knew of who had suddenly ‘outgrown their autism’! I had heard of one boy and found out that his mother had also found Dr. Feingold’s method, and he was allergic to cow’s milk and products. The fact that these doctors, so-called specialists in child development, were NOT even willing to consider autism was caused by allergies and not by mothers, I decided we would not ever return again. They weren’t willing to learn, only to continue to spew a dogma that was NEVER founded in science! It was part of my journey in learning that Allopathic Medicine is not about real health or curing anything…just about control and creating lifelong patients.

Parental Influence vs. External Factors: How do you perceive the balance between parental influence and external factors in shaping children's beliefs and choices, especially in today's media landscape?

Well, that is a tough one to answer. Years ago, the old adage was ‘Bring your children as you consider right. They will grow and eventually leave home to explore the world, and not follow your teachings. However, if you raised them right, they would eventually return to the teaching you instilled in them.’ That was a time when family had the greatest impact and influences on the adults your children grew into. Sadly, that is not true today. Children born since the '70s have been exposed to outside influences from the moment they are born. They are injected with toxic substances at birth. Once home many are placed in front of TVs or other devices to entertain and distract them, as their parents need ‘me’ time. Then cellphones are put in front of their faces because parents think it is cute to have infants and toddlers see themselves transformed onto some creature via Snapchat or Instagram or some other program. Next, they are given a smart phone as young as 5 or 6 because parents think they are safer in preschool and school that way…and they are never bored. Sadly, few parents monitor what their young child is being exposed to, and rarely encourage them in physical play or creative pursuits. Kids today spend little time in solitude or reflection. Families spend less and less quality time together, and children learning quickly to not bother parents and to just call a friend to talk to. In the end, there are far more outside influences that impact what our children’s beliefs and the kinds of adults they become. I read research a few years back that those outside influences are more powerful than family values and beliefs in molding our children today, and I believe that from what I see and have experienced.

Reflecting on Your Daughter's Choices: Could you share more about your relationship with your daughter and how her medical decisions have impacted your relationship?

Sadly, my daughter and I have NO relationship at this time. Since Covid hit the scene she has eagerly read and listened to every talking head out there telling the public to heed:

1. the danger of the new novel virus

2. staying as far away from others as possible, even more than 6’ will save you

3. masks and double masks will prevent you spreading or getting C19

4. you can’t trust anyone who disputes the so-called vaccine will STOP the pandemic

5. the Un-Jabbed are harming everyone and putting lives at risk

6. do NOT let the unjabbed participate in society, etc.

So, because I do not agree and will NOT be jabbed with anything, I am now just a crazy and deranged old nurse putting her and others at risk!

I asked her to gather all the research she has that proves or supports her POV, and I will gather all I have then we can sit down and discuss each side and the research supporting it. She refused, and her only response was that the board of nursing should REVOKE my license and the universities that granted my advanced degrees (MS & DNP) need to REVOKE them as well since I am now spreading FALSE information and putting others at risk! She has even threatened to have me arrested if I ever send her anything on Covid, as she only reads ‘reliable’ science from the experts.  She also told me to get psychiatric help so I can become the mother she once loved…but now despises for my inability to grasp reality.

There is NO way to deal with this level of brainwashing from the propaganda that filled every airwave out there, and anyone that disagrees or asked questions was censored and shut down. So, I have not spoken to my daughter in over 2 years now and haven’t actually seen her since the Covid lockdowns began in 2020. While it broke my heart that the child, I raised to be independent and inquisitive, has somehow succumbed to this level of propaganda, I know she isn’t the only one and there isn’t anything I can do to open her mind and eyes to what has happened.

Only when deaths and lives damaged begin to affect her circle of friends in such high numbers that they can't be ignored does she have a chance of 'waking up'. Unfortunately, even then, cognitive dissonance might be too strong for her to accept that she was lied to. All I can do is watch and wait… alone.

Perceptions of 'C19 BS': What are your views on the COVID-19 situation, and how do you believe it has influenced your children's decisions?

Even in the beginning of Covid I had a hard time understanding all the hoopla over it, after all there were at least a dozen other corona viruses known to cause cold and flu symptoms, and I doubted this one could do much more. However, I was open to learning more and being ‘cautious’ until more research and data came in. I told my adult children the same, to be cautious and safe, but not get crazy over the new rhetoric. I read every piece of research that was released to the public, I questioned all the mandates begun without any foundations. I shared all I found with others. As a nurse I have always been an advocate for truth and transparency in assuring informed consent. My goal has never been to convince someone to do my bidding, rather to understand their options, the risks, and benefits of each, and to make a choice based on their needs and values…not mine. The outcome, good or bad, are theirs to live with once they know potentials for each choice. I tried to raise my children that way also.

Sadly, the campaign of fear and manipulation to control the hearts and minds of the masses was (and is) very powerful. Hearing and seeing lies on an almost hourly basis soon begin to convince an unquestioning mind that lies are truth, up is down, and right is wrong. The need to belong became more powerful than seeking knowledge, and groupthink began to take over once rational minds. Fear seems to have been the final ingredient in this toxic milieu. The power of social media in creating social influence in controlling the masses has been confirmed.  I may be wrong, but the end result has been anything but positive.

For my daughter she has long had a need to be part of her peer group. What others thought of her was always more important than what I thought or how proud I was of her. She simply considered me old fashioned, but harmless as I was always there when she needed something. She is very intelligent and well-spoken and was seen as a leader in her group of friends. Sadly, that made her susceptible to the power of group think…her need to belong. She only read what she found on mainstream media sites, never questioned anything she heard from talking heads, and became angry with me because I challenged it and her in the end. So, she took the Covid-19 jabs (I refuse to call them vaccines) and all the boosters offered. Now she just considers me a ‘a crazy old woman’ and that my nursing degrees (all of them) should be revoked because I spread lies in her opinion. She no longer talks to me, threatens to put a restraining order on me if I contact her or share any Covid research with her, and tells everyone I NEED PSYCHIATRIC HELP. We have not spoken in over two years now.

My son has married, has children, and works in IT in the banking arena. Sadly, he has always been fear driven in life. He is always afraid of losing what he has gained in life, doesn’t matter what that is…social standing, money, love, etc. I don’t know if any of that is related to the autism he experienced in early life or if it just his personality overall. Whatever, in the end he took the jab out of FEAR he would lose his job! He didn’t tell me for over four months that he had taken it for fear I would be angry. Fear and nothing more. Now he is fearful of the health damages he may experience in the future. Unfortunately, his fear of that knowledge also pushed him away from me as I tried to get him to take supplements shown to help detox the spike proteins injected into him. Didn’t help that his wife didn’t understand all the research and felt I was interfering in their life choices, which was never my intent. At any rate he has not reached out or spoken to me in almost a year now. I am just grateful that his fear has not led him to give those toxic jabs to my granddaughters.

Impact of Differing Views on Family Dynamics: How have differing views on medical and other issues affected your family dynamics and relationships?

Many of my friends in the nursing community have taken the Covid jabs and consider me delusional in my continued belief of the malfeasance of our government. They refuse to acknowledge all the past history of social and human experiments on citizens from surgical, radiation, disease manipulation, eugenics, and others. There are so many reports and books on the subject but supposedly intelligent and educated professionals refuse to look beyond what they are told by those in power.

Many of my relatives have also succumbed to the propaganda surrounding Covid-19, and many have happily injected their children. They refused to come to my home and denied me entry into theirs. Some only accepted the jabs because they were told they would be fired if they refused, and they feared losing everything.

Life will never be the same, ever! In the end, the Covid 19 debacle has cost me many friends, family members, and my children. Even if friends and family return to my life the fact that they easily and happily cut me and others out of their lives in anger and fear will always leave an uncertainty in my heart… they could and would do it again under similar circumstances. How does one heal from that kind of soul searing pain?

Advice for Parents Facing Similar Situations: Based on your experiences, what advice would you offer to parents who are dealing with similar challenges in their families?

Question everything, always! Why do you need surgery? What are the options? What are the potential side effects of this drip or treatment? Never do or take anything because someone else says it is safe or effective. Knowledge is the only way to make a decision that will benefit or work in your life. Read, read, read some more. History has great lessons to learn. Stop thinking some ‘expert’ out there knows better than you how to grow healthy children in a strong family…they don’t. THEORIES change daily, theories aren’t proof, they are just someone’s beliefs written down to explore.  All those degrees just mean they had the money and ability to read different books than you at a university. YOU can read books too… so do it.

Don’t be afraid of going against the mainstream. Raise your family with morals and values, even if your children leave and never return you will know you did your best and what was right. Hindsight might be 20-20 but do your best to know why you are making those decisions now.

Being a parent is the most important and hardest job you will ever have. You receive no training for it, and your children did not come with instruction books. You are on your own and flying alone far too often. Do your best knowing that in the end life may not turn out as you expected, your children may leave you behind, but you made decisions based on love and knowledge rather than fear or group think.

Perspectives on Information and Propaganda: How do you think information dissemination and perceived propaganda in the media influence family relationships and personal beliefs?

Today when everyone is connected online 24 hours a day media and social media has a huge impact on family dynamics. Add to that the constant and instant electronic feedback from one’s peers doesn’t give much time for people to truly think and reflect on anything. Just put a problem or concern out there and instantly you have ‘your’ circle of friends and online acquaintances telling you are right, need to be concerned about the dangers parents who are outdated in their beliefs, and perhaps you should avoid them and anyone else who is misinformed in how it works today. Add to that the MSM News talking heads telling of the Dangers of anyone who questions that official government narrative. Research has shown that hearing and seeing anything repeatedly will eventually become the truth in the minds of those who have lost the critical thinking abilities we were born with, but that have been squelched by an education system that no longer encourages thinking and reflection. Together these influences are destroying family systems worldwide. Estrangement is a global phenomenon that is growing daily.

Sadly, peer pressure and the media have a greater influence on our children’s beliefs and what kind of adults they become today than do family values and morals.

Looking Forward: What are your hopes for the future in terms of your relationship with your children and your role as a parent and individual in society?

I hope that someday I can have a relationship based on love and respect with my adult children. That they become able to have relationships with me and others not based on similar views or politics. When and IF they become true Adults (not simply ‘adulting’) capable of that only time will tell and is totally out of my hands. Through the pain and tears I have learned that my role as the ‘parent’ is over. It is no longer my role to teach them or mold them…that is done, and I did my best and would not change how I did it. I was a loving mother, who put the needs of my children first and foremost. I advocated for their health and education, always. I was involved always. Ours was the hangout place for their friends. Nothing was taboo to talk about. They were encouraged to learn and explore life, and to build the futures they want. My role now is observer and consultant when asked.

In the end, the Covid 19 debacle has cost me many friends, family members, and now my children. So, for now, I wait with no expectations that things will change…only a lingering hope for a better future. Nobody ever said life would be easy…and it sure ain’t for sissies!

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1. Doctor of Nursing Practice: A professional degree in nursing. The DNP focuses on clinical practice as opposed to the research focus of a PhD in nursing. Nurses with a DNP are prepared for advanced clinical roles and leadership in health care, working in direct patient care, administration, or education.

2. Dr. Benjamin Feingold was a prominent American allergist and pediatrician, best known for his work in identifying the potential impact of food additives and artificial colourings on children's behaviour. Born in 1899 and passing away in 1982, Feingold gained significant attention for his contributions in the field of allergy and immunology, particularly regarding his hypothesis linking hyperactivity in children to artificial food additives.

Key aspects of Dr. Feingold's work include:

1. Feingold Diet: Perhaps his most notable contribution, the Feingold Diet, was introduced in the 1970s. This diet eliminates artificial colours, flavours, and certain preservatives, which Feingold proposed could cause hyperactivity and other behavioural problems in some children. The diet also recommends avoiding naturally occurring salicylates found in certain foods.

2. Clinical Practice and Research: Throughout his career, Dr. Feingold was involved in clinical practice and research. He was the Chief of Allergy at Kaiser Permanente Medical Center in San Francisco and conducted several studies on the relationship between diet and behaviour.

3. Legacy: Dr. Feingold's work significantly impacted public awareness about food additives and their potential health impacts. His hypothesis spurred further research in the field of diet and behaviour and contributed to a broader understanding of food sensitivities and allergies.

Dr. Feingold's contributions remain a topic of interest for many in the fields of nutrition, paediatrics, and psychology, reflecting the ongoing exploration of the complex relationship between diet and behaviour, particularly in children.

3. Red food dyes are synthetic or natural additives used in the food industry to impart a red colour to food products. They are often found in a wide range of processed foods, including candies, baked goods, and beverages. These dyes are used for aesthetic purposes to enhance the visual appeal of foods and to maintain colour consistency.

Two common types of red food dyes are:

1. Artificial Red Dyes: These include dyes like Red No. 40 (Allura Red AC), which is a widely used synthetic dye produced from petroleum. Artificial red dyes are known for their vibrant colour and stability in various food processing conditions.

2. Natural Red Dyes: These are derived from natural sources. Examples include carmine, which is made from cochineal insects, and beetroot extract. Natural red dyes are favoured in products marketed as organic or natural, but their colour intensity and stability might vary compared to synthetic dyes.

Regarding BHT (Butylated Hydroxytoluene) and BHA (Butylated Hydroxyanisole), these are synthetic antioxidants used in food packaging and processed foods to prevent the oxidation of fats and oils, thereby extending shelf life and maintaining flavour stability. They are different from food dyes as their primary function is preservation, not colouring. However, they are often used in conjunction with food dyes in processed foods.

The potential allergic and inflammatory reactions to food additives and preservatives, including red food dyes, BHT (Butylated Hydroxytoluene), and BHA (Butylated Hydroxyanisole), have been a subject of research and discussion in the food and health sciences community. Here's what is generally known about these substances:

1. Red Food Dyes:

   • Allergic Reactions: Some individuals may experience allergic reactions to certain synthetic food dyes, including red dyes like Red No. 40. Symptoms of a food dye allergy can include hives, itching, or anaphylaxis in severe cases.

   • Inflammatory Reactions: Some studies suggest that certain food dyes might exacerbate inflammatory conditions.

2. BHT and BHA:

   • Allergic Reactions: Allergic reactions to BHT and BHA can occur. Symptoms might include skin reactions, respiratory problems, or gastrointestinal disturbances.

The evidence regarding the inflammatory reactions to BHT (Butylated Hydroxytoluene) and BHA (Butylated Hydroxyanisole) is limited however, some studies and research efforts have explored this area:

1. Cellular and Animal Studies: Early research, primarily conducted in vitro (in a lab setting) or on animals, has indicated potential inflammatory responses to BHT and BHA. These studies often focus on how these preservatives might impact cellular processes related to inflammation.

2. Oxidative Stress: Both BHT and BHA are antioxidants, but paradoxically, in some situations, they might promote oxidative stress, a condition that can lead to inflammation.

3. Immune System Modulation: Some research suggests that these compounds could modulate the immune system, potentially leading to an inflammatory response.